LIAR

Lies are what they say

What you give universe returns you back

Life never returns the tears you had

Never replenish with happiness you deserved

Lies are what they told

Everything will be fine with the time immemorial

Every problem has a solution

But time never fades the wounds you had

Lies are what they want me to believe

Promises they make to walk along

Dreams they build together to stay forever

They shatter without a sound

Lies are what I trust

When I look in your eyes for a faith

I want to believe, believe you are true

They are just mist vanishes in thin air

Whom should I call a liar?

What more restored for me?

They are never wrong I must say

I am the liar, I lied to myself

I lied to my heart believed on their lies

The truth I get to know

“I lied”

~Smita

Random Thoughts

Life is indeed a mystery, when it shows different open doors and when it slams it on your face you never know. A perfect roller-coaster ride as people say. But for me it changes its meaning because of the occurrences and people. The one I met leaves few traits in me which are unique as they are. I try to figure out similarity but end up extracting their true quality which are different from others. Casting the differences. Little acts, behavior are so picky and strange that they stays in my heart. Its like even the presence of the person is not there any other person acting the same drowns back the unique quality of the person I know. Fragrance is the other things which makes me believe that person is near to heart. Suddenly the memories are fresh and as if that very day is a day old.That's how memory are stored in life. You never know what you will thing the next second it might retrace you back or portray you the future. But living in present is what life teaches us. Though indeed realizing the lessons of life is tough an tougher to implement.
~Smita

Starting Yet Again

Staring on the blank sheet

I thought, Can I write again?

It has been months since I left

Venting out  what I felt..

Entombed myself to keep his words

A cocoon I had to become

Overstepped myself in every direction

Still can't answer his question

Where I was wrong

What was my mistake

Thought about it over and over

Still couldn't found a trace

Neither murky nor unfaithful

I gave you my all

Still you wanted me to go further

And now  I can't handle it at all

I couldn't be your perfect one

Neither now I dream to be

Got a new gleams of happiness

Something I can believe

The night ends with a dawn

The sun shown bright

You were the dark knight

Loving you was my fallacy

Finally the butterfly left the cocoon

The dark clouds blew

Happiness touched me yet again

Contented with anew

You were there always

But never felt for you before

Thanks to be  in my life

Thanks for being my lover 

P.S- This is dedicated for one I loved and the one I love..

Metamorphosis

Rock erodes with time, season changes  too
I'm the only one waiting for you
The wall clock swaps in every second
Mundane things I say
Every morning goes like a moribund state
Yet I still feel my pulse and heart beats
Yeah I'm living that's the sign
Else I couldn't find none...

Lively jolly energetic I called myself
Now suffocating in the murk
I'm mutable so I have morphed
Now got easy with the musk.

Rebouncing Back

May everyone leaves me in the middle of the road,
May everyone forget me as I never existed,
May I never get a shoulder to cry,
May I never get a hand to help

But I know You'll never leave me alone
You'll never leave me to face this world
You'll never abandon my trust
Coz you are my world now...

It's beautiful I know..the beauty of black & white
I fell in love with words & etymo's
Long time ago I knew its the best
Still gone blind for the earthly pleasure
Now it bewitch me as the glamorous queen
My superfluous emotions drives me now

They are my knight saving me from the den of dark
Even this zing of shindig can't replace it
I was supine, I sulked about ill's
But this behoved to take me in right way

Took me to the roads of light
Where I host my showcase
This is life..this is life
Now rebouncing to the forgotten path...

ECSTASY

Fumes, smoke and dusty around

I’m the happiest person above the ground.

I like the rhythm…
I like the heat..

I like the warmth, the arouse n feel
I like this swilling around me…

It turns the world worth living
Ahh…that flavor so captivating

People cough, while I’m a maniac
Maniac of that taste
Drools me over
Once I had it wraps me cover
It frees the grudge, the shackles…
Shackles of tears, hatred, wrath

                                                           I’m a free soul

                                                           I’m an unholy beast

                                                           I’m a phantom..on the mammoth’s tomb

                                                           I’m an evil in the deadly war

                                                           That’s what they call me when I touch a lager

                                                           I see sarcasm and cry

                                                           They want me to leave it

                                                           But tell me why???

It’s a wave which drives me over

I want to live like this ever forever

World say stop it…leave this
But I ask why????
U will never understand this ecstasic cry…