As It Rained

It rained again as I got drenched in the winter nights.

Walking down the lane fierce trails of water

Blocking my way through..as I walk down

Shower the grace of god making the land wet

Leaving its traits swirling in grace

And it rained again

The dark nights the faces I saw

Eagerly waiting for it to stop

I want to walk it through…

I want to see the end

Numb my sense froze in cold

Eyes still on my way..still I walk through

Licking the ground shielding the earth

It rained as it never rained before

I paved my way in between the shower

Humming my favorite line

“Long to go before I sleep

 Long to before I sleep” 

~Smita

Until I met you I didn’t know

How to illuminate the heart

Feel the warmth inside

Light and spontaneous

How to chain in one bond

Yet feel so free

 I didn’t realize my dreams are true

Almost I can touch it

As you hold me tight

How could this be so real

Thing I longed so long

How could I never know I can smile

Even when I want to cry

Passing through the hell

How couldn’t I see in your eyes

I am almost me

Unmasked unveiled

How couldn’t I know you will wend through my ways

Unburdened as heaven, unscathed as sea

Only because it’s you and me!

~Smita

Pills

I am holding a pill in my hand

I never thought I have to

All the miseries will end

Give me a few more

This is no way delving life

I feel more remorse

When I know I have to

Why not end it all?

All pain ,all fear will be numb

If this pave my funeral and peace

Then rip my heart deluge the pain

Why cutting the wound  to worse?

Take my life I feel no fear

Is this peace? Is this you want?

Then you sanctified me of what I am not.

~Smita